|Barked: Tue Jul 2, '13 9:41pm PST |
| Hi Pudsy's mom. Hi Coco's mom.
Pudsy - yes, Duncan had all those kinds of symptoms too. Where it seemed like his head was "empty." The 3 a.m. barking jags are familiar too. Those were sad for me though, because I'd go to him to try and comfort him, and it seemed like he didn't even know I was there. Toward the end. I'd touch him, (pet him, etc) but he just seemed confused, like he didn't know what that was.
Peaches - is Coco a beagle also? They are very wonderful. I understand about his loss of mobility along with the CCD. Duncan suffered from that too. His back end was atrophying day by day. Sometimes I'd find him awake, lying in a puddle of pee. I don't know if he couldn't get up, was too weak from muscle loss and sore from arthritis, or if he just forgot to get up or didn't even notice that he had peed. It is hard to tell when they are old and they have lots of different problems.
To answer your question, I kept waiting for God to take Duncan. I think I waited too long. He was suffering - but it's hard to tell how much - I can only guess based on what I saw - but he didn't have a good quality of life. I finally decided I had to stop being a coward and do what was right for Duncan. I took him to the vet, where he gorged on the messiest, smelliest meal ever (he still loved food); and then they gave him something to sleep, and then he left this world, cradled in my arms.
No one else can know what will be right for you and Coco, though. It will be hard no matter which way it goes.
I've no doubt you'll keep reading that note that was attached to Coco when you first found him. Amazing isn't it? That note seems a bit sad, yet it was the beginning of the great life he had with you. It will be a treasured memento for you now. I am surrounded by my memorials of Duncan. I have a pawprint that my friend, one of the vet techs, made on that last day we had together. She also made for me a beautiful chain of beads, attached to a picture of him within an ornate metal frame, that hangs from my car's rearview mirror. And another friend made for me the most lovely hand embroidered pillow featuring a beagle puppy (with Duncan's own colors) and his name.
It's hard to lose a dog when they are such an important part of our lives. There's nothing anyone could say to make that less true. It hurts and it's hard. But we really still have them forever, they live in our hearts. Life does go on and if you believe in the Rainbow Bridge, or some kind of hereafter, be peaceful knowing you will see Coco again when the time is right.
Sorry y'all for derailing this thread a little bit.
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